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I'm not the type who says I told you so,
Goodbye For Now, so long,
I think the hardest part about holding on is letting it go,
When will we sing a new song, a new song.

theres a sevendust concert at the end of the month..anyone wanna go???

and those lyrics are from the new pod cd..it actually sounds like it'll be good!

it seems the harder i try with the things i really want, the further away they get from me. how annoying and frustrating! and now i'm listening to depressing music and i'm not even that depressed lol. just once i'd like things to go my way. doesn't seem like too much to ask.

 i dunno..heather comes back tomorrow i think. so that should be interesting. and wendy leaves..so now i'll have nobody to bug...or nobody to bug me rather ;)

hmm..seems my last few posts have been kind of depressing and negative, thats gay. i guess thats the only thing worth talking about at the moment tho lol. nothing too exciting going on in the happy part of life lol

so yup....

so apparently i screw everything up..makes me wonder how i've kept my friends around this long lol. but i guess i can't scare them away..maybe they're too dumb? as you can see by wendy...." isn't it reassuring that we're good enough friends that you can tell me stuff like that and i'll still talk to you?"

oh well..i'm just getting tired of everything..maybe i really should go down to naples and look for a job...

Lookin out the window of pain
I see clearly now your face
Something so pure
Something I'm sure will be lost
I'm staring at the shadows in red
Sends me chills now
I see clearly everything except your face
I'm lonely scared to be lonely
Thought until death meant
My fears were safe within now they begin
To be lonely scared of the only
Thing I knew best so I thought I knew everything
Until now I see I'm lost and lonely
-sevendust